Feeling Alone

 Rahul was sitting silently feeling alone.His wife Radha came to him and said, ‘ why are you looking pale?’

‘Nothing! At times I feel like I am not an honest person,’said Rahul.

‘I wonder why do you think so,’ said Radha

‘My heart wants me to do something else and I am doing something else. It feels as if a voice inside me wants to say something but I choose to ignore it.The outside noise is so deafening that I have turned deaf to my own voice. I hate myself for doing so.It feels like I am cheating my self and If I am not honest with what is inside me then I am definitely not honest with everyone outside’,Rahul said.

‘If you are getting upset because of this voice,that means you are listening to it. A lot of people are not even capable of doing that. You just need to find a way to harness the energy of the  ideas suggested by your own soul. Recognizing that voice is a big step forward’,Radha said.

‘What is the point of knowing everything when I don't have courage to pursue it. I am a slave of my own laziness. I will bust my asses off but will never dare to take a big step and if there is no change of my action, obviously there will be no change in the outcome.Once a slave, always a slave’, Rahul said nearly in tears.

‘Let me tell you a story’, Radha said.

‘OK!’ Rahul said.

He simply wanted to drift his mind away from the feeling of being mentally alone. A story seemed a good idea.

Once upon a time long long ago, a rabbit worshiped the rabbit god for years under the Present Tree. Finally the god appeared and asked rabbit 🐇 if he wanted something.

The rabbit said, ‘Thank you   for coming to see me Rabbit God. I really want to stay safe and enjoy the rest of my life with lots of food, safe place to live and I do not want to work at all for getting any of this.’

The God said who do you think is the most powerful animal in the jungle. The rabbit thought for a while and said I think hippopotamus is very strong and I have never seen anyone attacking him.

God said okay I bless you that from now onward you  will live inside a hippopotamus. You will get your  nutrition from the food he eats. You won't have to work your entire life for getting the food and a safe place to live but there is one condition that you can tell hippopotamus what to do to make you feel better but it will always be his choice to listen to you or ignore you. Secondly if he dies, you die with him and vice versa . Your feelings will become common.

The Rabbit god disappeared after saying this.

The rabbit was  overjoyed. He found a hippopotamus named Minku and decided to live inside him for the rest his life.

Minku was a very powerful hippo. He usually roamed freely in the jungle without giving much thought. His favorite animal in the jungle was his long life girlfriend. Her name was Shifu. Their favorite job  was to tease and disturb other smaller animals. They planned to get married in the near future.

There were many magical trees in the jungle. One of the tree was able to help anyone under it, to see their past in detail. It felt as if the events were happening then.

More than 80% of the animals spent their majority of time under this tree.

Minku and Shifu spent most of their time under the same tree , re-living their first meeting and earlier days of the relationship.

Suddenly, one day Minku heard the voice of the rabbit 🐇 living inside him.

‘Who is speaking’? asked Minku.

‘ I am a rabbit. I live inside you. You can only hear me but other than that can not feel my presence.

 We share the same experiences be it food or emotions', said the rabbit.

'Is this some kind of a bad joke?' , asked Minku.

'No matter who the hell you are, I will find you and I will kill you', Minku recited Liam Neeson. 

' Good Luck doing it. Remember that you can kill me only if you kill yourself', rabbit said.Sarcasm dripping from every word.

' I will keep saying whatever I feel is necessary for your happiness but you can choose your own way and I can not stop you from doing it,' rabbit continued.

'You stupid rabbit! I choose to ignore you' ,Minku said opening his mouth wide open.

' You can ignore me but let me tell you that my happiness is directly connected to yours, hence I will only suggest ideas beneficial for both of us',rabbit said.

They continued their journey for many years together. Rabbit kept telling his thoughts but the hippo ignored everything. He normally went with the flow and followed other animals.He married Shifu. He was hired by a jungle organisation to protect the land. In the meantime animals discovered a new magical tree which helped them see their future. The crowed from the Past Tree 🌳 now got divided . Minku and Shifu started spending half of their free time under this tree.It was usual for couples after marriage.The other half was continued under the Past one. The craving of going in past somehow grew after marriage for many couples.

One day, humans visited jungle and littered their garbage all over the place like only humans can do.They also left food packets.One of the packet contained Yogurt . Minku ate that packet. 

Rabbit  inside him screamed at the top of his voice , ' You Moron! you know that Yogurt is poisonous for rabbits.Why can't you think about the things you put in your body'.

'I was hungry', said the big hippo. 

'I also had no idea that Yogurt is poisonous for rabbits', hippo continued.

'Well it is your goddamn duty to know exactly what is the input required for the optimum performance of your body and me living inside you. I have never seen you put kerosene in your petrol car 🚗. You know about the engine of the car but not your own.

Not only that, You love water but got yourself a job on land,which makes you miserable and hence I am impacted as well', rabbit 🐇 said furiously. 

' I have plans for the future rabbit but somehow,I keep postponing it. I  promise that I will give you immense pleasure in future.You know very well, what I see for myself under the future tree 🌳 ', Minku spoke slowly. He was feeling sorry for himself.

' I have always seen you preponing your meetings with Shifu. That was because you loved meeting her.You only postpone things you don't love. Why the heck you do or plan to do things you don't love?

And about your monkey business between past tree and future tree 🌳, why are you acting dumber than you are! These both trees show you only your own mental reflection.They are never real.

Remember my words, I reached my god when I kept myself for long enough under Present Tree 🌳. 

All your mental bullshit makes you miserable and in return makes me miserable.Life is too short for doing things you love and you are wasting that time on your stupidity.I beg you to have mercy on me', rabbit 🐇 spoke straight out of his heart.

'Oh wow' ! Rahul said.

' Action are really important.I can come out of all this madness if I take actions and do what I love with everything I got, and most importantly, if  I  take actions NOW ' ,Rahul said,his voice energetic.

'Have you heard that quote that If you can be anything,Be  Kind'? Radha asked. 

' Yes! I have', Rahul said.

' Well! before being kind to anyone else, please be kind to yourself', Radha said.

' If not, even in crowd,you will always feel alone' ,Radha finished.

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